Archive for November 2007
Ambitions.
Posted by: Adriel on: November 28, 2007
” What do you want to be when you grow up? ” I’m sure you’ve been asked that question. Or done an essay on it in school sometime along growing up. I asked xan. She replied “I have no ambitions, aspirations, goals. etc. Since young when people asked me that I never had an answer, [...]
Baggage.
Posted by: Adriel on: November 27, 2007
As we age with time, we become weaker. Yes, weaker. We’re become more physically adept, but inside, we’re weaklings, victims of a heart-breaking society. A child is naive, a child is determined. I’ve seen it. A child, say maybe, 5 years old. Wants to enter the library, pushes his pregnant mother with all his tiny [...]
Expectations.
Posted by: Adriel on: November 27, 2007
You’re thinking you’re never enough. I know, I probably never will be, enough. I’m just not as romantic, not as caring, not as committed, not as loving, as you would think. Sooner or later you will find out I’m just like any other guy. Not special, not superior, not unique. I am but only human. [...]
You.
Posted by: Adriel on: November 25, 2007
But I was being such a pain. You stuck on. But i was being so whiney. You made me smile. But I was being so childish. You held my hand. But i was being so unreasonable. You gave me reasons not to. But i was being ungrateful. You loved me.
Mesmerizing.
Posted by: Adriel on: November 24, 2007
Most laugh in my face when i say I’m insecure about my looks. I attribute this insecurity and inferiority complex to my childhood days. Name-calling. Rejection. Never stopping stares. I still face similar, if not the same today. I’m not the same person I used to be. I’ve done some things most people would never [...]
After all that is said and done.
Posted by: Adriel on: November 22, 2007
I guess xan was right. B1 knows best. Heart wrapped in bubblewrap indeed. It only reflects how big an emotional scar amanda has left. No, not scar, scars don’t hurt. A stake, not yet pulled out. Tugging it hurts. Pulling it out would kill me. Leaving it in..leaves me vulnerable. It’s like building a sandcastle. [...]
Trust me.
Posted by: Adriel on: November 21, 2007
I mean, Trust me, really. Not a figure of speech, not a vote of consolation. Trust me. You tell me you trust me with your life, now is the time to show it. To let your actions manifest through those beautiful words. Trust me. I will not be able to save you. I am unable [...]
Vulnerable, you make me.
Posted by: Adriel on: November 21, 2007
The walk from Block W to Block E was a daunting one. Fear. Insecurity. Anxiety. So tangible, not a good thing. I had to walk through the yard to get back to my cell. Fingers pointed, whispers sinking into ears of the unfamiliar faces. Mouthing of words I never will hear, but somehow I have [...]
Fascination.
Posted by: Adriel on: November 19, 2007
I’m in school at 6.20am. This place. The familiar place. So unfamiliar in it’s quietness. As if time had frozen still. I’m meeting her for breakfast. Can’t wait.
I watched you leave.
Posted by: Adriel on: November 18, 2007
I watched you wave to me. Bittersweet smiles. I wanted to freeze that moment . But I could only slow it down. And when you left it felt as if i was the only one left in this world. Still, I’m thankful to have you. I look back and think of all those who rejected [...]
Love at first sight.
Posted by: Adriel on: November 17, 2007
No, I do not believe. I believe in Chance and serendipity. It all boils down on whether you took that chance, or you let it pass. Whether you value feeling secure and safe, or you are afraid of having future regret. It’s pull, or push. “This is too special. “
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Adriel
18/7/1989
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