If the ink ran dry.

It’s been two whole years since I started writing on myfruitcups.com. Suffice to say, things have changed. The people who were by my side at the beginning are now nowhere to be found. I guess the final straw was when my supposed best friend disappeared, rather, decided to ignore me and pretend I never existed. [...]

Avalanche of excuses. Tell me something I don’t already know. Happy birthday to me, happy birthday to me. Read nothing but the titles.

It’s right there, within reach. Getting published. Yet, somehow, I’m having second thoughts. Do I really want this, I ask myself again and again. There’s no answer, I can’t find one. What’s holding me back? Perhaps the idea of letting the written word, rather, my written words into the world and not be able to [...]

To write, write. What’s there to say, rather, what’s left to say. I’ve put myself on a number of paths that either lead me nowhere or to the less desirable places, enough to know that ultimately it does not make a significant enough difference for me to want to change. Rainy days make better days. [...]

This is it. This will inevitably change my life. For better or worse? Well, I don’t know yet. It’s too early to tell. And if I knew? If i knew it would not benefit me in any way, would I still do it? I guess I would. I mean, I have to. Forget about ‘destiny’ [...]

I need.. a friend?

Days & days. It hit me. I realized that the only reason why I’ve been feeling conflicted recently, well, more than usual, was not because I was more arrogant or more plagued with inferiority (I go from both ends from time to time), it’s that I haven’t been absurd enough to maintain the balance. I’ve [...]

Well, there you have it Adriel. Isn’t this what you asked for? What you were trying so hard to achieve? They hate you, surely, they must. They have good reason to, this time. Typical, and very pathetic, really. You and your depraved obsessions with wanting to be scorned. You try so hard to make them [...]

The dead tell no tales. It’s that same scene again, those pearly whites. Heart, filled with lust and head, power – so overwhelming. Give in. Give in. Keep walking, to nowhere, a journey with no destination. There’s no sense in figuring out what’s really going on. No sense. None. So go on, keep walking. Wander. [...]

Truth is a blinding light. There is not one definite picture painted and fact of the matter is, we see what we choose to see. Truth. Truth is justified perspective. Universal truth is either perspective justified by a person(s) of influence or well constructed propaganda. Propaganda is perspective manipulated, which aims to manipulate perspective. Truth, [...]

These redudant dreams, oh I’ve quite a lot. What is and what is not. Needed.

There belonged a boy, Born & raised on foreign soil. Without a place to call ‘home’, his shadow his best companion. – Well, It seems you have underestimated the forces that go against you inevitably. Once again you find yourself in the dirt. You try to stand up, you manage to, but something’s different this [...]

There’s somewhere I need to be right now. -and it’s not here.  

Hello. Erm. So theres’ this corner i go to now and then with an old friend, He’s in a band. A man without a plan. But hey, You know, I always liked the feeling, ending my day when others start theirs, starting when others end. It’s like lying down by the coast of a beach, [...]